Pause

by Doc Coleman on March 28, 2013 · 2 comments

in Asides

Argh. I have missed two #WriterWednesdays, and The Wayback Machine seems to have crashed as soon as I started doing #FlashbackFridays. What happened to me? What is going on?

Well, two weeks ago, my wife had a full knee replacement on her right knee. And that is pretty much where all my time has gone since then. I can’t think if any other time in my life when I have worked harder or longer hours.

She is recovering well, aside from odd spikes of pain through her knee. She is progressing well through her physical therapy, but she burns through her available energy quickly. It doesn’t help that the pain saps her strength and she has problems with all the really effective pain meds.

She is doing a lot in her own, but she still needs someone there for when there are problems. That means that if I am going to work, I need to get someone to stay with her during the day.

It is hard being a caregiver.

It isn’t that there is a lot to do. Most of the tasks are actually small, but quite reasonable. The issue is that the tasks burn your time.

You can’t manage your own work. Everything must be done as needed, and has to go at the patient’s pace. There is a lot of alertly waiting to see if you are needed, which is the only thing you can do with that time: watch, wait, and be ready.

The interruptions are constant. I have gained a new respect for what nurses do on their job. You can’t get back to a task because as soon as you sit down, there is “one more thing”.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I don’t resent my wife’s needs for care. I want her to get better and be able to get more out of life. The pain in her knees was destroying her life. I am just trying to express what I gone through these past two weeks. Most days I’ve been up roughly 21 hours in the day, and actively doing something all the time. At that, lots of things have stacked up around the house. When it is difficult to get the laundry and dishes done, and impossible to get more than three hours of sleep, not a lot of writing gets done.

I did manage to keep the Balticon 46 Wrap-up on schedule by editing last Monday’s audio on Sunday. What should have taken me about two hours took eight, due to the frequent need to stop and address something else. I did also get a chance to project out the due dates for the rest of the Wrap-up. If I stay on schedule, the last installation of the Wrap-up will go live on May 20th, the Monday before Balticon 47. So, you can see that I’m strongly motivated to keep on schedule.

I mentioned in my last post that I finally got “Welcome to Paradox” published on Smashwords and accepted into Smashwords Premium Catalog. “Paradox” has also been accepted at Barnes and Noble, so it is now available on the Nook. No word yet on the iBook store. I haven’t been able to submit the story to Amazon to make it available on the Kindle yet. I hope to squeeze out time for that soon, but…

Time marches on, but it feels like my life is stuck on pause. I want to get back to writing. I need to start editing Perils and get it ready for Beta readers. It is said that you make time for what is important. But when everything you do is important, no matter how well you manage, it is possible that there just isn’t enough time.

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